Thankful

I guess it goes without saying that I'm really incredibly thankful for my current pregnant state. I was talking to Patrick in the car as we were driving home from my folks after Thanksgiving dinner. I can't believe it's only been one year since I had my fibroid surgery (I had a c-section to remove a 6cm fibroid last year 11/18/08). I had pretty much resolved myself to the fact that after having three miscarriages, I was not going to be able to carry a baby to term. I hadn't even been thinking of getting pregnant, so... it was quite a shock for us both when we were faced with another pregnancy. We both knew that if I could get past the 12-week mark the baby would be in the clear.

I'm so excited and anxious to be a mom I can't hardly stand it. I do want her to stay inside me as long as possible - I'm not that anxious that I want her to be even a little bit premature. I'd really like her to cook until my scheduled c-section date 12/30/09 - Patrick's tax-credit baby.

Be thankful for what you have and keep hopeful for what could be. You never know what will happen in this life. Make your choices, stay healthy and happy and enjoy all that comes your way. Even the negative things can have positive outcomes. Just stay open to the possibilities.

~Green

34 weeks and most is well

I can't believe I'm still having morning sickness. How crazy is that?! It has diminished - I only puke once a week on average, but still...

I have the nursery mostly set up and ready for Penn to come. I just have to move the computer to another room and the chaise lounge into the nursery for me to sleep/rest/feed her on. I did have a surprise the other morning when I realized that Miss Cat discovered the crib and how comfortable it was. She loves the aquarium that sings lullabys and the folded blankets to sleep on. She has been in there at least once a day for the last three days. I feel a little sad that she will lose this perk once Penelope arrives. I suppose she can nap in the crib when there is no baby in it.

Yesterday, the government announced a crib recall - the largest number of cribs to ever be recalled. I inherited my crib from my aunt, and it has the side that comes down. I don't really feel concerned as that would have been the type that I would've purchased because I was selfishly thinking how much easier it would be for me to lower the side and pull the baby out after my c-section. I suppose I need some more information regarding how many deaths have occurred due to this type of crib, etc... Isn't this a standard design?

~ Green

Week 31 and all is well

I'M STARVING!!!!

I'm still following my diet, but it's getting harder to eat only at the times the dietician has laid out for me. She is growing like an octopus - I eat a meal and she grows in proportion to the size of that meal - she gets it all... leaving me... still hungry.

My mom, sister and aunts are throwing me a baby shower this Saturday. I'm kinda excited and then not really. It's like all of this is ending. I know I will get to see Penelope in a few weeks and that is going to be great. But I really like being pregnant (despite the gd and the nausea and the etc...). I know where she is and what she is doing and it's so easy to protect her. I can go on with my regular life (a little bit sleepy) but I have her with me all the time. I've started refering to myself as "we". I'm kinda like the borg, now. A collective. Not singular. I will lose that when she is born.

It's a time of transition, definitely. I'm ready to get on with the nesting. I don't have her room set up yet. I'm waiting for the crib and the changing table. I need to get on it - She is coming, she is coming.

~Green